Read this and had to sit still for a bit. Can't find my glasses, they are not on my head, so I hope this King King thumb typing turns out...
.....
I voted that I don't know it yet, and I was honest in that, but I k ow why I'm stuck.
...it's not because I don't believe.
It's because I struggle to believe it about ME.
I have been after this for decades, Dre. What we talk about here, though you have the brilliant title of Th HDC, the principles behind it are what I live and breathe every day. It's my character.
I wonder if that's the case with most if not all of us. It's why this resonates with us.
....but I have been actively pursuing it for DECADES...and not figured it out.
At all.
I know I'm not stupid.
You don't have my life or family or abilities if you're stupid.
...so somewhere in my brain, the "acceptance" sliver of my personality is being held hostage somewhere in the deep, dank, foul, serial killer chambers with the psychotic aspects of my personality are held for extreme survival situations and RL wants to kill me.
(Happened a few times...and no, we will not discuss it...)
Since I'm not stupid, and I've not achieved it, a d I've tried to for decades, my belief system...for ME...seems to be broken.
...because my daily life stands as proof that I can't have it, for whatever reason.
Soooo, I try to help other achieve it, because I love them...and accept this life and it's circumstances as the cards I was dealt...and push on, making the very best if it all in gratitude.
It's why I hang on to my billion dollar idea and work towards it daily...because what if I'm the brick layer, who has to use up his life to lay the foundation for my KIDS to realize that accomplishment?
I don't think your belief system is broken. It's 1000% valid to not know that something is possible that hasn't happened after decades of relentlessly trying.
I can't help but think that we've all been on different shades of this same path. Working towards a "billion dollar idea" that still hasn't happened. And that it's the PEOPLE that are going to make this shit possible.
That it's us coming together and bringing what each other is missing. Heaving each other over the brick walls, standing up to each other's boogeymen, introducing each other to the right people.
People have ALWAYS been what's made change possible for me. It ALWAYS comes down to a group of people that I can point to and say... they are who helped me make this possible.
I wonder if that's what this whole HDC thang is about?
Honestly, I've been happier since you showed up on substack, and I was willing to go this alone forever. Don't get me wrong -- I have so many wonderful people who love me and support me, esPECIALLY my family (wife being #1)...
But I can't say that anyone 'gets' me.
I wrote my initial articles on substack, starting with:
...no holding back, heart on a platter,...and my own kids contacted me, in tears, never knowing that was me...
We are still learning about each other in this kindred/friendship, you and me, Dre...and I'm connecting with others from the HDC too...and it feels so very different.
Not often in my whole life that I have ever felt 'seen'....even 'noticed'.
I function on being willing to do whatever I'm supposed to, even if everyone else bails. Believe it or not, 'honor' and 'integrity', 'duty' and 'responsibility'/'accountability' are the things that make me get up one more time...because they are core beliefs of mine that allow me to stand my ground against all else.
I am husband, father, son, brother, friend.
Now 'kindred,'
But for ANYone to be able to understand what is just freakin killing me, because I just...can't...reach...the....$%#@$#@!!!...[insert whatever the hell I haver to DO to make this damn thing WORK here]...??
Yeah. That's priceless.
So to you, and all these wonderful ladies I've met so far, I love you all.
Honestly and openly, I don't know what's happening or what will happen...I'm just willing and if I can be of service, and stay within my personal moral code and framework, I will.
I'm happy you are all here.
I like everyone I have met.
...and I'm willing to let others help me, even though that's completely new to me in this area of my life. I hope you'll all be patient, because I'm not sure how to act/react... as I'm not usually on the receiving end of these things.
Last, so we are clear here, if anyone needs help with a boogeyman,...I'm your guy.
I realize that....and it's so new and....sorry, for lack of a better word...'odd', I'm trying hard to adjust.
It's honestly overwhelming, and almost angering, cause I'm sitting here at times thinking, "Where the hell has everyone BEEN for the last 30 years and ass-kicking struggle?!?"
....lol, then the cartoonist comes out and says....
"You worked SO hard ALL YOUR LIFE for friends like this, Jaime!!
...how they SCREWED UP to deserve YOU? NOT OUR PROBLEM!!"
That actually sounds like a gargantuan compliment... that this level of SEEING YOU is odd. I'm sad it took until now, but this is why I'm convinced that THIS is our MFing time. We've now joined our forces and nothing can stop us.
When I think about the wisdom + life experience we have in the small group we've already built, I can't find a single reason that this won't happen for us NOW.
We've got the finances, the tech, the strategy, the wellness, the soul, the creative... I mean, COME ON!
Careful. I've pushed for the last 12 years, because I knew my goals are possible, just didn't know how.... now it feels like it's shifting from 'possible' to "probable"!
DANG.
That feels good.
Oh, and I am reading a fascinating article that I want to recommend to anyone here that is considering releasing 'serial' material...
Yeah.
Read this and had to sit still for a bit. Can't find my glasses, they are not on my head, so I hope this King King thumb typing turns out...
.....
I voted that I don't know it yet, and I was honest in that, but I k ow why I'm stuck.
...it's not because I don't believe.
It's because I struggle to believe it about ME.
I have been after this for decades, Dre. What we talk about here, though you have the brilliant title of Th HDC, the principles behind it are what I live and breathe every day. It's my character.
I wonder if that's the case with most if not all of us. It's why this resonates with us.
....but I have been actively pursuing it for DECADES...and not figured it out.
At all.
I know I'm not stupid.
You don't have my life or family or abilities if you're stupid.
...so somewhere in my brain, the "acceptance" sliver of my personality is being held hostage somewhere in the deep, dank, foul, serial killer chambers with the psychotic aspects of my personality are held for extreme survival situations and RL wants to kill me.
(Happened a few times...and no, we will not discuss it...)
Since I'm not stupid, and I've not achieved it, a d I've tried to for decades, my belief system...for ME...seems to be broken.
...because my daily life stands as proof that I can't have it, for whatever reason.
Soooo, I try to help other achieve it, because I love them...and accept this life and it's circumstances as the cards I was dealt...and push on, making the very best if it all in gratitude.
It's why I hang on to my billion dollar idea and work towards it daily...because what if I'm the brick layer, who has to use up his life to lay the foundation for my KIDS to realize that accomplishment?
Okay. Then I'm still in.
King King Thumbs did pretty damn good!
I don't think your belief system is broken. It's 1000% valid to not know that something is possible that hasn't happened after decades of relentlessly trying.
I can't help but think that we've all been on different shades of this same path. Working towards a "billion dollar idea" that still hasn't happened. And that it's the PEOPLE that are going to make this shit possible.
That it's us coming together and bringing what each other is missing. Heaving each other over the brick walls, standing up to each other's boogeymen, introducing each other to the right people.
People have ALWAYS been what's made change possible for me. It ALWAYS comes down to a group of people that I can point to and say... they are who helped me make this possible.
I wonder if that's what this whole HDC thang is about?
I hope so.
Honestly, I've been happier since you showed up on substack, and I was willing to go this alone forever. Don't get me wrong -- I have so many wonderful people who love me and support me, esPECIALLY my family (wife being #1)...
But I can't say that anyone 'gets' me.
I wrote my initial articles on substack, starting with:
https://www.lifeoffiction.com/p/how-to-succeed-at-fiction-by-failing
...no holding back, heart on a platter,...and my own kids contacted me, in tears, never knowing that was me...
We are still learning about each other in this kindred/friendship, you and me, Dre...and I'm connecting with others from the HDC too...and it feels so very different.
Not often in my whole life that I have ever felt 'seen'....even 'noticed'.
I function on being willing to do whatever I'm supposed to, even if everyone else bails. Believe it or not, 'honor' and 'integrity', 'duty' and 'responsibility'/'accountability' are the things that make me get up one more time...because they are core beliefs of mine that allow me to stand my ground against all else.
I am husband, father, son, brother, friend.
Now 'kindred,'
But for ANYone to be able to understand what is just freakin killing me, because I just...can't...reach...the....$%#@$#@!!!...[insert whatever the hell I haver to DO to make this damn thing WORK here]...??
Yeah. That's priceless.
So to you, and all these wonderful ladies I've met so far, I love you all.
Honestly and openly, I don't know what's happening or what will happen...I'm just willing and if I can be of service, and stay within my personal moral code and framework, I will.
I'm happy you are all here.
I like everyone I have met.
...and I'm willing to let others help me, even though that's completely new to me in this area of my life. I hope you'll all be patient, because I'm not sure how to act/react... as I'm not usually on the receiving end of these things.
Last, so we are clear here, if anyone needs help with a boogeyman,...I'm your guy.
I eat monsters.
My proof: https://www.lifeoffiction.com/p/how-to-trap-monsters
...just sayin'.
Willing is all I need. If you’re willing, and we’re able… that’s the fucking magic.
We see you, we WANT to help, you don’t have to be the one giving all the time. That’s not what we’re about it. ❤️
I realize that....and it's so new and....sorry, for lack of a better word...'odd', I'm trying hard to adjust.
It's honestly overwhelming, and almost angering, cause I'm sitting here at times thinking, "Where the hell has everyone BEEN for the last 30 years and ass-kicking struggle?!?"
....lol, then the cartoonist comes out and says....
"You worked SO hard ALL YOUR LIFE for friends like this, Jaime!!
...how they SCREWED UP to deserve YOU? NOT OUR PROBLEM!!"
That actually sounds like a gargantuan compliment... that this level of SEEING YOU is odd. I'm sad it took until now, but this is why I'm convinced that THIS is our MFing time. We've now joined our forces and nothing can stop us.
When I think about the wisdom + life experience we have in the small group we've already built, I can't find a single reason that this won't happen for us NOW.
We've got the finances, the tech, the strategy, the wellness, the soul, the creative... I mean, COME ON!
Careful. I've pushed for the last 12 years, because I knew my goals are possible, just didn't know how.... now it feels like it's shifting from 'possible' to "probable"!
DANG.
That feels good.
Oh, and I am reading a fascinating article that I want to recommend to anyone here that is considering releasing 'serial' material...
HIGHLY recommended.
Let me find the link.... on my phone....